And so endeth this blog

I've thought hard about this, but this blog was mostly for George's daddy. Now he is no longer with us, I don't have the heart to carry it on. In the next couple of weeks I will print off its contents and add them to the items I have already put away for George.

Thanks to the RFA having individual email accounts, I managed to copy most of the blog to George's daddy as i wrote it, so he did get to see the final pages even though he didn't come home to us.

Take care all of you that have enjoyed watching George's progress since Christmas 2008.

Jayne x

So far so good

Well that's the first weekend truly on our own out of the way. In the 9 years that he's worked away, this is the first trip that George's daddy has ever done where I haven't counted down the days until he was due home on the calendar. Perhaps on some level, I knew that he wouldn't be coming home.

George is being so brave. He had a postcard from his school saying that he made his school a better place this week by trying hard and being brave. He's also had 3 postcards off his daddy. I have put 2 away to keep them safe, but handed him the one that came on Friday. I told him that maybe his daddy wrote it before he died. George's answer was "No mummy, he's sent it from heaven".

I just hope that wherever George's daddy is, he's as proud of our little boy as I am. I'm sure he is. We love you Paul xxx

A sad week

We're having a bad week. The police came on Monday to tell us that George's daddy had been found dead in his cabin on board his ship off the coast of the Falkland Islands.

I have told George the news, and he said "Mummy, daddy has broken my heart", then he cried for a little while, then he ate his tea.

I'm so proud of my brave little man, who has been to school today and keep hugging me. He has told me several times that he is sad that his daddy has died, but I just remind him that I love him most in the whole wide world, and that he and I still have each other.

My heart is broken too, but if anyone can help me through this it is my gorgeous little boy.